Rant

I tell you what! This has been a week.

Well, I guess I could change that to "month," "year," or another fairly long duration of time. From the looks of things, I'm a little bit... stuck. Not that it matters too much. At least I'm currently living somewhere, have a few things to do here and there, and am not completely a loser. Sort of.

I graduated from college a year ago now. Wow! Time really flies when you're having fun. Sometimes, I miss the crazy, hectic, wild days. But, there's another side of me that hated college -- everything about it. That's probably just the stressful side of things. The more I'm out of it, the more I get thinking about the cool, fun, and exciting things that went with it. Perhaps, that's why I'm considering going back in the fall. That, and I don't have a full time job yet, anyway.

Anyone who tells you that the American economy is fine and getting better is wrong. That's a bloody lie. Right now, there seems to be NOTHING. I've applied to at least 30 different schools and districts. My credentials look pretty good. So... why am I not finding anything?

Maybe there are jobs out there. Maybe you're someone that has been hired out there somewhere. So, what's my problem? Nothing. I think... Though, I'm starting to wonder. A few times in my life, I've gotten SO excited about what's coming up that I just can't stand it -- like a little kid waiting for his favorite snack. However, about that many times that I've been just THAT excited, I've also come to a startling realization of how big of a jerk the universe can be sometimes. For example - I've been going to school for a Bachelor's degree in Music Education, allowing me to teach band or orchestra or choir. When I graduated, I was extremely excited to have that stupid paper in my hands. Yes, it's a HUGE accomplishment, and I'm glad I did it, BUT, now that I've been looking for work for a full two years, I'm starting to wonder just how great that accomplishment really was.

I love music. It's been part of my life for a very long time. That's kinda why I majored in it in college. One thing they don't teach you in college: job hunting. One more thing they don't teach you in college: patience. So, I was under the impression that I would receive a teaching license that allowed me to teach any grade, K-12 in music. Ha! Nope. Utah decided not to continue a K-12 license, instead, if you want to teach at any level, you must have one bachelor's degree for elementary, another for secondary. Ironically, after I finished with my secondary license, guess what level most of the jobs I found were for? ELEMENTARY! D-: It's enough to make you want to pull out your hair and stomp around.

Well that's about it. I'm thinking I may just go back to school in the fall -- get the other part of the license and just hope for the best in another two years. Or, perhaps I'll go back and get a music performance degree. I don't know yet. Whatever it ends up being, I'm a little frustrated, a little discouraged, and getting quite impatient!

What does God have in store for me? I guess I just have to wait and see. He's not going to show me yet!